Nathaniel’s friend Dillon mentioned once that the things people think about but will never actually say out loud are things that interest him. I’ve been thinking about this for awhile. I kind of feel like that’s what blogging is all about. Things you think about but won’t necessarily actually talk about in person.
Take my recent post on moving cannonballs and shopping carts. When I first thought about moving shopping carts and compared it in my mind to the photographer who may or may not have moved cannonballs around, I knew it was something completely silly that I’d never actually tell anyone about. But posting it on my blog? Of course. I actually posted it as a way of poking fun at myself.
(Which I do a lot. Poke fun at myself, I mean, in ways that other people don’t necessarily realize that’s what I’m doing. They (you) probably just think I’m stupid.)
The fact that I post things on my blog I wouldn’t normally tell people about in person is one reason I don’t really want people I know in person to read my blog. It weirded me out at first when I realized Dillon was reading my blog. Meeting someone in person who only knows you from your blog—that’s different. They’re geeky enough to have found it and read it all on their own (no offense). But other than family I’ve never told anyone I know in person about my blog.
Have you?
So…things I think about but would never really say:
- I wish I had her hair.
- This person is talking to me and I have no idea what they’re saying. Just nod and say yeah.
- I want to start a punk band when I’m a grandma.
- Make that a doom metal band.
- If I practice really hard, could I get so good at crossword puzzles that I could be the National Champion?
- I’m going to make it on the leaderboard for this stupid game on Facebook if I have to spend weeks trying.
- (After being kissed by a drunk guy at a show:) Maybe beards aren’t so bad, after all.
And so on.
You?
September 17th, 2008 at 1:17 am
things i think. but dont tell
`hmm i talk too my friends mom more then i talk too my friend
`i want too punch that lady in the neck
`im scared
`cant wait too get home and watch hannah montana
`im fat
`im horrified from pickle suprise
September 17th, 2008 at 2:50 am
Wow. Yours are *way* better than mine.
September 17th, 2008 at 6:15 am
better then shopping carts and balls
September 17th, 2008 at 6:16 pm
Oh yeah. My filters are pretty pourous, so I say a lot of things I probably shouldn’t, but I never tell people about my blog in real life. Never.
Things I think about but never talk about:
-Babies bore me.
-I wonder if I cut my toes off if I could still walk well..
-Are smaller feet and cuter shoes worth that?
-Is my fake tooth noticeable?
-The sun bugs me, mostly.
-I wonder if I’ll ever get it together enough to write a book. I really want to…
-I like beards.
-I hope I’m good enough…
September 17th, 2008 at 9:58 pm
-Should I tell Sis. Whatsherface sitting on the foyer couch that I can see all the way up her skirt from all the way down the hall?
-I don’t really care about politics.
-I’m going to beat Susan at this stupid game on Facebook if I have to spend weeks trying.
-Wow, that JW is really hot.
-Am I cool enough to be in Susan’s doom metal grandma band?
September 17th, 2008 at 11:48 pm
You crack me up. I tell people I blog all the time. Most of them have no idea what I’m talking about. Yeah where I live is so behind.
I rarely tell anybody what I’m thinking about. I’m not ssure I could come up with one of them right now. hmmm. no.
But I do have a good fantasy life – like when I’m driving and I see something in the road and can’t swerve to avoid it, I pretend it blows up on impact and my car flys into a million pieces.
I guess that’s one of those things.
September 18th, 2008 at 2:12 am
Tracy: really? the sun?
Bythelbs: Better a JW than a Mormon missionary, I guess!
Chronicler: I think about stuff like that, too.
September 18th, 2008 at 4:05 am
This is one of my favorite posts of yours I’ve read Susan (which somehow seems oddly ironic). You are the only person that reads my blog that I don’t know in real life and it messes with my head (not you reading it, the other people). I’m always thinking about quitting the blog because of the stress.
I tell people what I’m thinking way more than I should. I almost always regret it.
September 18th, 2008 at 4:58 pm
Yes, the sun. I know, I know… that’s why I don’t say it, and that’s why Washington suits me.
September 18th, 2008 at 7:42 pm
Actually I know what you mean. The sun drains me really fast. Sitting in it all day is not my thing. But riding a bike in it is good.
September 19th, 2008 at 8:32 am
What I blog about and never tell people in real life (well, those that don’t know about the blog, i.e. everyone in my ward):
*my depression sucks and sometimes I sit at home and cry all day long.
*I hate pretending to care when people ask “how are you?” but don’t really want to know the answer.
*Clean houses are overrated.
*I like my friends more than my family sometimes. Not always, but sometimes.
September 24th, 2008 at 6:34 pm
If it helps, I can be my usual reclusive self and show up before the last band at shows, then leave right before the band leaves the stage…and blame it on my crazy schedule, not my fear of social interaction and ruining my internet personality.
i think about why i do things, why other people do things, constantly. if i cross my arms i wonder why, if i speed up in my car without trying to i wonder if i am competing with the person next to me on the road. if someone spits near me i wonder why, are they mad, or just full of plegm? i wonder what the hidden meanings of every movement and action is but i rarely talk about this. maybe i should be a psychologist.
September 24th, 2008 at 7:00 pm
Or see one.
Did you go to Brant last night?
September 24th, 2008 at 10:18 pm
yeah, Im moving this weekend and was packing until 10, made it to the show around 10:40 in time for the end of the 2nd band. That was my excuse last night!
Brant was good, same set as last May, always awesome to see him play. He dropped the licks, they were outta sight.
December 26th, 2008 at 11:44 pm
It’s kind of funny that you mention this. I find people like me because of my ability to point out things they think. Everyone thinks these thoughts, but no one takes the time to ask someone else if they have ever. So when I say it, people say, “Wow, I do that too but I have never bothered to tell anyone because maybe they would think I’m weird.” For example, have you ever said a word, but said it kinda funny and for a second, you stop and repeat it in your head and feel kinda stupid? (You may have to read that over to realize what I’m saying.) Or have you ever farted, then you were like “Ewwwww, who did that?” but then you kinda stuck around to smell it? (I try not to point that one out to new friends, haha.) Or when you saw this long comment I am leaving, you were like “Aww bummer, I don’t want to read this, but this guy might have a good point.” I kinda like realizing everyone thinks pretty much the same as me.